Jordan

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 03:08:04 GMT

Just nothing

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 01:44:31 GMT

I feel like banging my head against a wall repeatedly.

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 05:39:32 GMT

Sat, 19 Sep 2009 22:13:17 GMT

I'm a heartless man at worst, babe
and a helpless one at best

Like five rapid to the gut it's not so easy to see

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 21:10:25 GMT

Tue, 15 Sep 2009 10:51:55 GMT

The Line

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 04:29:09 GMT

I am the line
I hold you near
There is no burden left to bear
I can see clear
You're in suspension
You know no love
There is no story left to tell
You have no wisdom to pass on

I am the soul of absolution
No man can hide his own illusion
My hands are crippled from the pain
You are the splinter in my vein
You put your head between your hands
And understand nothing it has
I feel the answers keep you scared
I've put the harm inside myself

I am the line
I hold you near
There is no burden left to bear
I can see clear
I am perfected
I know no void
I have no conscience to keep clear
I understand there's nothing more

You try to kid yourself with questions
Bleeding inside for some correction
I found you tied unto the cross
Your judgement owns your every thought
You know my words all mean the same
You've buried here to isolate
Into this prison in your mind
Where you were born without a spine

When did you stop caring?

Wed, 02 Sep 2009 04:26:28 GMT

sometimes you just fall. you fall back and smack, your skull hits the concrete and you wake up to reality. and that's when you can't decide what hurts more.

Little by little you lose your mind here

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 00:28:07 GMT

There is absolutely nothing I hate more than people who lie to me. I'm not an idiot, you're not a good liar, I can see through your BS and I will get the truth, no matter how many teeth I have to pull to do so. So the moral of the story kids, Just don't lie, it's not worth it.

Thu, 30 Jul 2009 17:15:54 GMT

Control yourself, take only what you need from it

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 16:28:03 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ad-tgbtbCEM
(The videos worth watching)

"And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you."

It's not a secret when everyone knows

Mon, 13 Jul 2009 05:54:40 GMT

I'm at Disney, it's pretty crazy, it's only day 2 and I'm totally over family time.

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 14:16:52 GMT

Day by day I lose respect for people.

Tue, 23 Jun 2009 18:38:36 GMT

In under 6 months I've managed to fracture 2 metacarpals (hand bones). My latest one is due to a frisbee, or a forearm, not sure which, I think I may have blacked out for a second when it happened. I wouldn't care except for the fact that this fracture has actually taken out a chunk of my bone (which is currently free floating in my hand) and it hurts like a bitch. This is bad bc a. I might need surgery b. I can't play frisbee and c. I start AT in 2 months and don't need a gimp hand!

Sun, 21 Jun 2009 05:10:11 GMT

How far are we going to let this go? I feel absolutely terrible about this situation.

Warning, this is EXTREMELY graphic. Also, read the story under the video.

http://otakurevolution.com/content/iranian-shot-during-protest-nsfwgraphic

Let go

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 19:42:31 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VVXtawJXcbg

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 20:32:36 GMT

I got into the AT program!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHH! I'm so excited. I almost cried when my dad handed me the letter. Finally, all my hard work has actually gotten me somewhere!!!!

Sat, 13 Jun 2009 17:59:54 GMT

After such a hard fall in life the only thing you can do is get back up, because if you lie there on the ground and don't try, then people are going to eventually stop helping you. The people who have effected my life have helped shape me into the person I am today. To some I would like to say thank you, and to others, fuck you, but as a wise man once said "You can't hate your origin, and not end up hating yourself." I appreciate my roots and the tree they've turned me into. I'm happy that I haven't given up on life like a lot of others have. I'm still hopping for my pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, I've still got my head up high. And I may have lost a lot of my good intentions, and I may have lost the innocence that I so heavily cherished, but I'm still a good human being, still here fighting for the cause. Love life.

Tue, 09 Jun 2009 13:29:36 GMT

I've come to understand that all I've been doing is running around in circles. There's absolutely nothing left for me here, and I even believe that it is toxic for me to be here. I need to blow this popsicle stand. Just 2 more weeks and school's over

Thu, 28 May 2009 18:12:03 GMT

Off to Gainesville, yippeeeeeeeee!

You win some, you lose some

Fri, 22 May 2009 06:36:18 GMT

For the first time, in a long time, I've felt an overwhelming sense of contentment. I'm taking two difficult classes packed into 6 weeks, praying to God that I get into the Athletic Training program, being driven up a wall by friends and family (and by living at home), and yet somehow, I'm fine with it. It kinda feels like nothing can touch me. Things seem to just be rolling off my shoulders and I'm really enjoying the feel of it.

Jacksonville next week, I am so freaking excited for the following reasons: A. I get to get away from everyone B. I get to go be with everyone in Gainesville C. I got my AT interview and D. I get to be in Jacksonville!!!!!!!! (it's my favorite drive)

Wed, 20 May 2009 18:09:42 GMT

Imploding's going to be put on hold for now, why?
CAUSE I GOT MY INTERVIEW WITH THE AT PROGRAM!!!! SHIT YES!!!!!!

Wed, 20 May 2009 13:36:59 GMT

I think
I may
silently
implode

I've decided that this my favorite Roots song

Mon, 18 May 2009 03:22:15 GMT

I never said I'm ready to die, but I accept it
Never said I'm ready for war, but I'm protected
I don't even know when it's comin', but I expect it
Lost all semblance of hope, so now I'm left with
Nervous conditions, addictions, in addition
to vixens that mixed in with the wrong crowd
My life is on a flight that's goin' down
My mother had an abortion for the wrong child
With the time I felt love, that's gone now
Been replaced by purple rains and some storm clouds
Misery love misery
So why make friends? Let's make some enemies
And now I got a habit that wasn't meant for me
Now I'm in a marriage that wasn't meant to be
One more reason to change identity
The cars, the crime, K's, penalties

Sat, 16 May 2009 17:20:18 GMT

It's funny that I still pick you out of the crowd.